I suppose every school does Rush or Formal Recruitment differently, but at Butler, we were led my a recruitment counselor who had de-activated from her sorority for all of first semester, who was with us at all times.
She walked us to the houses and was there when we left. Last night, we met with her after all the houses to "pref" them, or say in which order we liked the houses. Ashley & I quickly preffed ours & left.
We spent the night going to CVS for chocolate & spent the night laughing. I wasn't nervous one bit. All of my conversations had gone really well & I was pretty sure I'd get asked back to six houses today, the maximum allowed, even though our recruitment counselor said that rarely happened.
So fast forward to today.
We were all supposed to be in the room with our recruitment group to receive the list of houses that wanted to see us again at 10 a.m. so we could be ready to go to our first event at 11.
Our recruitment counselor called each person out in the hall to tell them which houses they got asked back to.
She kept not calling my name.
Finally, she called my name last & said we could just go over the paper in the room.
Here's what I saw:
11: no event scheduled
12: no event scheduled
2: no event scheduled
3: no event scheduled
4: (house I wasn't interested in)
5: (house I wasn't interested in)
I was absolutely shocked. Our recruitment counselor said she saw it last night & could not believe it either, that's why she saved me for last - she knew I'd be upset.
I thought there honestly had to have been a mistake in the computers.
When I was at one of the houses yesterday, one of the girls said her friend in the house who I know said to look for me & they thought I had already come through. That seemed weird. She said there were two Ali Hendricks' that were going through recruitment. I knew if there were two people with my same name I would know it.
So when I got that list, I was sure there had probably been some kind of mistake.
But, after the head of greek life checking again, she said there wasn't a mistake.
After a long, long, looonnngggg cry, I'm okay. Of course, it bothers me that no one liked me enough to ask me back a second time at the houses I liked. I mean, if I had said I like to do meth on the weekends or hooked up with a different person every night I could understand but I definitely didn't do that and I had good conversation with all the girls I met.
I'm not really sure what happened, but I'm going to try not to dwell on it because I can't change it.
I wasn't in a sorority up until now & I was fine. I will be fine not being in one now.
Kind Words & thoughts seriously appreciated ... like, more than you know.